In Transition

Since a few of my readers have asked...here's the status.

I'm in transition. Kinda like between events at a triathlon, except I seem to be moving much more slowly.

As to my current lack of goals/direction, I was awaiting a judging schedule before thinking about competition dates and what goals to set around those unset events. I'm sad not to be doing Catalina, but couldn't justify the costs. Maybe another year, when I can justify the costs.

As for posting, I have had some good things happen, I've had some "issues" (as one friend put it, she has so many "issues" that she has "subscriptions"...sadly, I totally understand and identify), and I've had some challenges.

In the interests of not sharing things that are not other people's business (I tend to share more than I should as it is), one of my ways of dealing with personal stress and stressful situations is to turn someone inward. Also, I know if I posted details about some of them, it would get back to those people, either directly as they read this, or indirectly, and the fallout from that would create more stress and more problems.

The way I deal with stress? Not healthy. I eat. Or I spend money. Or both. Sometimes I spend money at a restaurant. You know, kill two birds with one stone and all that. And if I'm really stressed, then I go shopping after I eat at the restaurant. Then I come home and try to escape into a book.

That is not to say that whenever I don't post, I'm having a face-stuffing fest. I also don't post when I'm on vacation or I'm just plain busy.

In the last three weeks, I've had all of the above. I put together a massage continuing education conference and was getting ready for it. Then I was gone for three days at the conference, out of even cell phone range. I got back and had several meetings during the week and then judged both days on the weekend. Then I had more meetings and another business trip where I actually had to fly out of state. Then we had busy events that meant that I didn't have time to even sleep properly all weekend. Now I'm having to deal with the details of moving my practice in 12 days. And in the middle of that, personal stress.

And we've already covered how I deal with stress. Negatively. I tend to do the opposite of what would be good for me, which I know is silly, but it's what happens. And when I get upset, same thing. And some of the stress was caused by things that upset me. And now I'm starting too many sentences with the word and.

So I'm in transition. Trying to move my brain to de-stress mode so I can stop my backwards unhelpful behavior, get everything done, and in the meanwhile life goes on.

I will post more when I'm a little less scattered and (hopefully) have figured out what I'm transitioning to.